Definitions.

Gossip: idle talk or rumor, esp. about the personal or private affairs of others

Drama: any situation or series of events having vivid, emotional, conflicting, or striking interest or results

Ignorance: The condition of being uneducated, unaware, or uninformed

Stupid: lacking ordinary quickness and keenness of mind; dull

Just a few definitions so there is no confusion as to what I am talking about.

After a lengthy discussion with my mother I have come to the conclusion that gossip does not die when you turn 18. In fact, it worsens. Adults are your middle school and highschool friends combined with an added feeling of independece and douchebaggyness. What I am still failing to understand is why. Why is it that when you reach this pivitol moment in your life you feel a need to be catty, shady, and other words of the sort? I thought we were responsible adults who could be open with others and at least be civil. But thank you for proving me wrong.

Gossip brings nothing but pain. anger, and hurt feelings. If you are not part of the problem and not part of the solution you should have NOTHING to talk about. If you have questions or concerns, take them up with the people directly involved. Don't be coniving and snarky [Yeah, snarky, it's a word. Google it]

Ignorant, not to be confused with stupid, talk is nothing more than nonsense. Seriously?? Get a life. Or at least get out of other peoples. Your "help" or whatever you want to call it, is NOT appreciated or wanted.

Please and Thank you.

Warning

Do not sleep when you are hungry. Because trust me, you will wake up 10 times hungrier...and grosser [if I can say that]. Beowulf soon! So you know how that is :D More updates later!!!

Cause I already posted in Facebook...

Wow. It's crazy how life gets so complicated so fast. One day everything seems fairly nice, going smoothly, you seem unstoppable, or at least pretty strong. And then BAM. Everything changes. I know change is supposed to be good, but sometimes it's hard to see the bigger picture when you are so focused on the here and now.

Complication-to make complex, intricate, involved, or difficult.

Difficult??? I don't want things to be difficult. I don't want my life to be complicated. I want to have fun. I want to be a crazy college freshman, my only worries being whether or not I'm going to fail my physics class (which is looking like a definite yes). Things are not supposed to be complicated for a very very long while. Part of me wished that things were different. But I have this situation and I'm not willing to change. Does that make me selfish or just self destructive? I don't know. I guess I'm both. I mean, I keep coming back to this same situation. I've done this before and it didn't end well. So what makes me think that this time will be different? How am I not going to end up broken again?

I don't know. Everything is so unanswered. I have no answers. I just have my faith. And some good "sad" music. And chocolate. And that is a recipe for a good long cry...and maybe a few pounds in between. I guess I have to put my faith in God. I have to realize that his plan is so much bigger than me or anything I can imagine. I know things are going to work out.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

I guess I have to take a leap in faith. And I'm willing to do that. Because I know the prize at the end is something worth complicating my life for. Thank you Jesus for everything you will do to help me through this. Cause I know that it will not be an easy task.

All nighters

Are never a good idea. Especially when you have a midterm in less than 2 days. Not cool guys. But definitely WAYWAYWAY fun.

Update

So school has been a little hectic/crazy/amazingly fun. I love it. And I don't at the same time. There are so many things going on that it's hard to keep up. Cru has definately taken up most of my time.

Halloween Party

Swing "Dancing" the night away

Me & Kevin

Knotts "SCARY" Farm

Ladies Night Out

Breakfast/Twister Party

FALL-OUT

Cabin 25 Girls

Broomball

Crusade Bonfire

Basically what's been going on so far. Lots of crazy awesomness, plus way more. College is definately amazing! And I know that these next few years will be the best of my life. Looking forward to many many more good times.