September 11th is very near and dear to my heart. It represents so many things. It is a symbol of hope. It is a day I am longing for. It stands for so many different things. I will remember it forever.
September 11th marks the official end of my Subway career.
September 11th marks the end of summer school.
September 11th marks the beginning of my vacation.
September 11th is going to be the best day ever.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
There's an Inflamation in My Tear Gland
I have found a new appreciation for Flight of the Conchords.
I'm Not Crying
So, you're leaving, aren't you'
I knew it when you said just then when you told me you were leaving
That's when I definitely knew
But if you're trying to break my heart
Your plan is flawed from the start
You can't break my heart, it's liquid
It melted when I met you
And as you turn around to leave
Don't' turn back to me
Don't turn around and see if I'm crying
I'm not crying
I'm not crying
It's just been raining
on my face
And if you think you see some tear tracks down my cheeks
Please. Please, don't tell my mates
I'm not crying
No, I'm not crying
And if I am crying
It's not because of you
It's because I'm thinking about a friend of mine who you don't know who is dying
That's right, dying
These aren't tears of sadness because you're leaving me
I've just been cutting onions
I'm making a lasagna
For one
Oh, I'm not crying
No
There's just a little bit of dust in my eye
That's from the path that you made when you said your goodbye
I'm not weeping because you won't be here to hold my hand
For your information there's an inflammation in my tear gland
I'm not upset because you left me this way
My eyes are just a little sweaty today
They've been looking around
They're like searching for you
They've been looking for you
Even though I told them not to
These aren't tears of sadness
They're tears of joy
I'm just laughing
Ha ha ha-ha ha
I'm sitting at this table called love
Staring down at the irony of life
How come we've reached this fork in the road
And yet it cuts like a knife'
I'm not crying
I'm not crying
I'm not cry-y-y-y-
-y-y-y-y-ing
I think you'll feel the same way :)
I'm Not Crying
So, you're leaving, aren't you'
I knew it when you said just then when you told me you were leaving
That's when I definitely knew
But if you're trying to break my heart
Your plan is flawed from the start
You can't break my heart, it's liquid
It melted when I met you
And as you turn around to leave
Don't' turn back to me
Don't turn around and see if I'm crying
I'm not crying
I'm not crying
It's just been raining
on my face
And if you think you see some tear tracks down my cheeks
Please. Please, don't tell my mates
I'm not crying
No, I'm not crying
And if I am crying
It's not because of you
It's because I'm thinking about a friend of mine who you don't know who is dying
That's right, dying
These aren't tears of sadness because you're leaving me
I've just been cutting onions
I'm making a lasagna
For one
Oh, I'm not crying
No
There's just a little bit of dust in my eye
That's from the path that you made when you said your goodbye
I'm not weeping because you won't be here to hold my hand
For your information there's an inflammation in my tear gland
I'm not upset because you left me this way
My eyes are just a little sweaty today
They've been looking around
They're like searching for you
They've been looking for you
Even though I told them not to
These aren't tears of sadness
They're tears of joy
I'm just laughing
Ha ha ha-ha ha
I'm sitting at this table called love
Staring down at the irony of life
How come we've reached this fork in the road
And yet it cuts like a knife'
I'm not crying
I'm not crying
I'm not cry-y-y-y-
-y-y-y-y-ing
I think you'll feel the same way :)
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Are You Pretty?
So I have embarked on the long journey that is summer. Last week I clocked in an incredible 50 hours at work. 50 hours!! It was crazy to say the least. Now let me tell you about the night shift. 11pm until 7 am. You arrive. You clean. You prep. You help. You try not to fall asleep. Who comes into Subway at 3 in the morning, you might ask. There are 3 types of people: Cops, drunks, and highs (high people). I'm not sure which group I enjoy more. But the best conversation I've had to date would have to be the "Are you pretty convo." Let's recap.
"Subway, Culver and Michelson. How can I help you?"
"Is this Subway?"
"Yes"
"Are you open?"
"Yes"
"Are you serious?!"
"Yes"
"Are you my hero?"
"Maybe"
"What's your name?"
"Jessica"
"Ok Jessica, I'll be right in!"
"We'll see you then"
3 minutes later
"Subway, Culver and Michelson. How can I help you"
"Is this Jessica?"
"Yes"
"I just called a few minutes ago"
"Mhmm"
"Are you pretty?"
"You'll have to see for yourself"
"Do you have a facebook?"
"Yes"
"Ok. I won't ask for your last name, because that's just creepy"
"Ok"
"I'll be right in"
"Ok"
Needless to say, he never came in. That might have been awkward. But yes, that is what I have to deal with every time I work. And now, it's even during the day!
"Would you like anything else?"
"Maybe your number"
"What?"
"Sorry..."
Awkward pause
"He's going to ring you up over there. Have a nice day"
Regardless, I get paid. That's what keeps me going :)
"Subway, Culver and Michelson. How can I help you?"
"Is this Subway?"
"Yes"
"Are you open?"
"Yes"
"Are you serious?!"
"Yes"
"Are you my hero?"
"Maybe"
"What's your name?"
"Jessica"
"Ok Jessica, I'll be right in!"
"We'll see you then"
3 minutes later
"Subway, Culver and Michelson. How can I help you"
"Is this Jessica?"
"Yes"
"I just called a few minutes ago"
"Mhmm"
"Are you pretty?"
"You'll have to see for yourself"
"Do you have a facebook?"
"Yes"
"Ok. I won't ask for your last name, because that's just creepy"
"Ok"
"I'll be right in"
"Ok"
Needless to say, he never came in. That might have been awkward. But yes, that is what I have to deal with every time I work. And now, it's even during the day!
"Would you like anything else?"
"Maybe your number"
"What?"
"Sorry..."
Awkward pause
"He's going to ring you up over there. Have a nice day"
Regardless, I get paid. That's what keeps me going :)
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Girrrrrl. Why he break up witchu??
A few of my favorite things:
-Studying for finals like a crazy person
-Putting a deposit down on an apartment, only to find out that you no longer have roommates
-Getting no sleep
-Having your mom call you right before a final to tell you that your parents are getting a divorce
-Having no money, because you had to help pay for your parents divorce
-Getting a C on a paper, ruining any chance of getting an A in that class
-Packing and moving out
-Cleaning because some of your roommates decided not to do a super awesome job
-Not having enough room in your car for all your stuff
-Having to work for 8 hours on a Saturday
-Having to make over 18 feet of sandwiches in an hour
-Realizing that you left every piece of make up that you own in an apartment that is no longer yours
-Driving 130 miles in less than 24 hours
-Knowing that for the next 15 months you will be in school, nonstop
-Not being able to be sad about anything because you are completely devoid of emotion
-Crying in front of someone like an idiot
-Realizing that you haven't talked to your best friend in weeks
-Realizing that it's your fault
I would have to say that this summer has definitely started off not as I would have hoped. And I know that things are just going to continue in a similar fashion. And so it begins.
On a happier note, this week is going to be semi decent. Work tomorrow, which I will survive. Tuesday will include a visit from my mom and brothers. Wednesday will be a very good night. Thursday will be an equally awesome day. Friday... no comment. Saturday will be spent working then who knows! And Sunday will involve going home, which will be a mixture of pleasantness and unpleasantness.
-Studying for finals like a crazy person
-Putting a deposit down on an apartment, only to find out that you no longer have roommates
-Getting no sleep
-Having your mom call you right before a final to tell you that your parents are getting a divorce
-Having no money, because you had to help pay for your parents divorce
-Getting a C on a paper, ruining any chance of getting an A in that class
-Packing and moving out
-Cleaning because some of your roommates decided not to do a super awesome job
-Not having enough room in your car for all your stuff
-Having to work for 8 hours on a Saturday
-Having to make over 18 feet of sandwiches in an hour
-Realizing that you left every piece of make up that you own in an apartment that is no longer yours
-Driving 130 miles in less than 24 hours
-Knowing that for the next 15 months you will be in school, nonstop
-Not being able to be sad about anything because you are completely devoid of emotion
-Crying in front of someone like an idiot
-Realizing that you haven't talked to your best friend in weeks
-Realizing that it's your fault
I would have to say that this summer has definitely started off not as I would have hoped. And I know that things are just going to continue in a similar fashion. And so it begins.
On a happier note, this week is going to be semi decent. Work tomorrow, which I will survive. Tuesday will include a visit from my mom and brothers. Wednesday will be a very good night. Thursday will be an equally awesome day. Friday... no comment. Saturday will be spent working then who knows! And Sunday will involve going home, which will be a mixture of pleasantness and unpleasantness.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Heartless
Ahhhh!!!
Almost a whole month with out a post?!?! What is wrong with me. Well, sorry to disappoint you all, but this will not be a long post, nor will it be incredibly informative. Just a quick catch up of the last few weeks.
1. I won the contest. 17 pounds in 1 month. $100. Awesome. I missed food :)
2. I ate spotted dick, and I liked it (and on a side note - Adam had my dick, and he liked it too)
3. Week 7! Which means almost done :)
4. IPOD touch soon. The decision has been made, it all depends on the money
5. Family life is sucking right now, and the saddest part is that I really don't care anymore
6. John's graduation is soon! I have to think of something awesome to get him
7. Private Practice had the GAYEST ending in the history of GAY endings
8. Chuck knows kung fu :D
9. $5 footlong deal is OVER
10. Never ever ever ever go to a 7 hour shift for work on less than 2 hours of sleep.
And to leave you all, a super awesome cover of a song that I really didn't like the original to
Almost a whole month with out a post?!?! What is wrong with me. Well, sorry to disappoint you all, but this will not be a long post, nor will it be incredibly informative. Just a quick catch up of the last few weeks.
1. I won the contest. 17 pounds in 1 month. $100. Awesome. I missed food :)
2. I ate spotted dick, and I liked it (and on a side note - Adam had my dick, and he liked it too)
3. Week 7! Which means almost done :)
4. IPOD touch soon. The decision has been made, it all depends on the money
5. Family life is sucking right now, and the saddest part is that I really don't care anymore
6. John's graduation is soon! I have to think of something awesome to get him
7. Private Practice had the GAYEST ending in the history of GAY endings
8. Chuck knows kung fu :D
9. $5 footlong deal is OVER
10. Never ever ever ever go to a 7 hour shift for work on less than 2 hours of sleep.
And to leave you all, a super awesome cover of a song that I really didn't like the original to
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Yummy yummy Cheesecake
I know it's been a while. Too long. Much too long. But working 40 hour weeks, in addition to full time school, isn't exactly a conducive environment for blogging. I'll start with Spring break (because that's how long it's been!)
It was GREAT! It was relaxing. It was fun. It was necessary. The time I spent home was what I needed to be revitalized. School is so draining. I don't want to be a complainer, because I know you all go through it too. But you know. I spent time with family and friends, saw movies, went out to dinner/lunch, game nights :) and other various fun things. Needless to say, I was very sad Saturday night when I had to go home to be at work at 6:30 the next morning. Eff.
Now on to school. I was blessed this quarter. Classes are on Tuesday and Thursday ONLY! And here's my quarterly review.
SE 13 - 9:30 am. It's very....interesting. And extremely boring. But definitely manageable. I have the class with Laura, which makes it more enjoyable. My 4th stats class at UCI. And it's not getting any better. I predict an A in this class. Maybe even an A+
P107 - 12:30 pm. Clinical Child Psychology. It's about abnormal child psychology over the years, and what we're doing now with it. The class is fine. The teacher is rather boring. And she lectures insanely fast. It's a lot of material, and I'll have a nice research paper due at the end of the quarter. Awesome. I'll say B+ (A if I kick it up a notch)
Writing 39C - 2:00pm. BORING. I hate writing. I hate research. I hate Free culture. This is going to be most difficult class, by far. 3 research papers. Awful. My first one is due next week. I haven't even started. Eff. I give myself another B+
P108 - 3:30pm. This is definitely my most interesting class. The Social Animal. The professor is pretty interesting. A lot of movies (video clips) are shown and in class activities, which helps the time pass. A in this class :)
So there you have it. I know you were waiting for it. I hope everyone had a very happy Easter. I know I did.
And as update to those who know about my contest at work. 12 pounds an counting!
It was GREAT! It was relaxing. It was fun. It was necessary. The time I spent home was what I needed to be revitalized. School is so draining. I don't want to be a complainer, because I know you all go through it too. But you know. I spent time with family and friends, saw movies, went out to dinner/lunch, game nights :) and other various fun things. Needless to say, I was very sad Saturday night when I had to go home to be at work at 6:30 the next morning. Eff.
Now on to school. I was blessed this quarter. Classes are on Tuesday and Thursday ONLY! And here's my quarterly review.
SE 13 - 9:30 am. It's very....interesting. And extremely boring. But definitely manageable. I have the class with Laura, which makes it more enjoyable. My 4th stats class at UCI. And it's not getting any better. I predict an A in this class. Maybe even an A+
P107 - 12:30 pm. Clinical Child Psychology. It's about abnormal child psychology over the years, and what we're doing now with it. The class is fine. The teacher is rather boring. And she lectures insanely fast. It's a lot of material, and I'll have a nice research paper due at the end of the quarter. Awesome. I'll say B+ (A if I kick it up a notch)
Writing 39C - 2:00pm. BORING. I hate writing. I hate research. I hate Free culture. This is going to be most difficult class, by far. 3 research papers. Awful. My first one is due next week. I haven't even started. Eff. I give myself another B+
P108 - 3:30pm. This is definitely my most interesting class. The Social Animal. The professor is pretty interesting. A lot of movies (video clips) are shown and in class activities, which helps the time pass. A in this class :)
So there you have it. I know you were waiting for it. I hope everyone had a very happy Easter. I know I did.
And as update to those who know about my contest at work. 12 pounds an counting!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
562-Cindy
So a few Fridays ago was a big day. It was "Ditch School to go to Big Bear!!!" day. And we did! I was promptly awaken at 4:30 am, courtesy of Laura's phone. After I got out of bed, did my morning routine, threw on some clothes, we made our way to Adam's car and were on the road! Let me just say, there is no one on the freeway at 5:30 in the morning. Ok, that's a lie. There are significantly less people on the freeway. The drive was fast. Getting our ski's/snowboards was fast. Getting our tickets, fast. Then it was time. Mind you, I've never skied before. I've been snowboarding, once, 3 years ago, and it was not my most graceful moment. But I thought anything had to be better then spending 95% of my time there on the ground. So my first run. I didn't fall off of the lift. Good sign. And then I was off. And I was good. Well, better than expected. I had a little spill, but other than that, my first run was amazing. Needless to say, I think I impressed most people, including myself. But that's pretty much how the day went. We would go down a hill, I would have a few falls (sometimes only 1, sometimes many) And because I'm a beginner, they loosen your skis, which make them fall off easier. I had a difficult time with that.
So it's 1pm. We've been skiing since 8:30. We had just gone down Summit Run, and decided that it was such a good run, that we were going to do it again. So I took off first. (I think the reason for this was in case I fell, or lost many articles, everyone who came up behind me could help me out) So I'm booking it. And not the good kind of booking it. The bad, I know I'm going to fall in 4 seconds, kind of booking it. And I did. I fell, lost my hat and goggles, slid down some more, lost a ski, then another, and then I stopped. I looked up and saw my stuff at the top of the hill, tried to climb and get it, heard Adam and Laura coming, and decided to let them get it.
Now this is where things go fuzzy. Actually, this is where I don't remember anything. So everything that I'm recounting was told to me from this point on. Adam and Laura got my skis, helped me back into everything made sure I was ok, and then we took off again. Kevin had already passed us at this point. We ski for a little bit. I make my way up to where Laura is and say "Not to alarm you guys, but I don't know where we are." So we sat down and they tried to see if I was being serious. I think the tears speak for themselves.
The medics arrived (thank you Kevin!) And I was immediately rewarded with pure oxygen. Amazing. They asked a lot of questions, most of which I didn't know the answer to. "What day is it? What month is it? What year is it? (2003 was my answer) Who's the president?" I had no idea! They put a neck brace on me rolled me onto a backboard of sorts, strapped me in, and then hauled me down the mountain. There was an ambulance waiting. (Not for me, thank goodness) But that didn't stop me from freaking out and trying to get off the back board. They took me into the medics building and tried to check me out. I got asked all of the same questions again. This time, I knew who the President was. They wanted to send me to the hospital, but in my amnesic state, I refused. After a very long ordeal, I was finally released and sent to the lodge with Kevin. We were there for almost 2 hours. And in those 2 hours, we had the same conversations, over and over again. I think he was prompting me for a laugh. (I will admit, it was funny hearing about all of this) By the time we left, everything was getting clearer. And by the time we got home, I was back to normal.
I still don't remember anything from the fall, or in the hour proceeding it. But, it does make for a good story. So if and when I do go skiing again, I will be wearing a helmet.
So it's 1pm. We've been skiing since 8:30. We had just gone down Summit Run, and decided that it was such a good run, that we were going to do it again. So I took off first. (I think the reason for this was in case I fell, or lost many articles, everyone who came up behind me could help me out) So I'm booking it. And not the good kind of booking it. The bad, I know I'm going to fall in 4 seconds, kind of booking it. And I did. I fell, lost my hat and goggles, slid down some more, lost a ski, then another, and then I stopped. I looked up and saw my stuff at the top of the hill, tried to climb and get it, heard Adam and Laura coming, and decided to let them get it.
Now this is where things go fuzzy. Actually, this is where I don't remember anything. So everything that I'm recounting was told to me from this point on. Adam and Laura got my skis, helped me back into everything made sure I was ok, and then we took off again. Kevin had already passed us at this point. We ski for a little bit. I make my way up to where Laura is and say "Not to alarm you guys, but I don't know where we are." So we sat down and they tried to see if I was being serious. I think the tears speak for themselves.
The medics arrived (thank you Kevin!) And I was immediately rewarded with pure oxygen. Amazing. They asked a lot of questions, most of which I didn't know the answer to. "What day is it? What month is it? What year is it? (2003 was my answer) Who's the president?" I had no idea! They put a neck brace on me rolled me onto a backboard of sorts, strapped me in, and then hauled me down the mountain. There was an ambulance waiting. (Not for me, thank goodness) But that didn't stop me from freaking out and trying to get off the back board. They took me into the medics building and tried to check me out. I got asked all of the same questions again. This time, I knew who the President was. They wanted to send me to the hospital, but in my amnesic state, I refused. After a very long ordeal, I was finally released and sent to the lodge with Kevin. We were there for almost 2 hours. And in those 2 hours, we had the same conversations, over and over again. I think he was prompting me for a laugh. (I will admit, it was funny hearing about all of this) By the time we left, everything was getting clearer. And by the time we got home, I was back to normal.
I still don't remember anything from the fall, or in the hour proceeding it. But, it does make for a good story. So if and when I do go skiing again, I will be wearing a helmet.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Finals can Wait
1. Last beverage→ Coffffffeeeeeeeee
2. Last phone call→ Yesterday, at work :)
3. Last text message→ Annie - "He is really awesome. Uh oh"
4. Last song you listened to→ Single Ladies!!!
5. Last time you cried→ Pshhhh. Girls don't cry. It's been a while.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice → Ehhhhhhh.....
7. Been cheated on? No
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? → Mebe.
9. Lost someone special? → Doesn't everyone
10. Been depressed?→ There was a time.
11. Been drunk? →What do you think?
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. YELLOW!
13. Blue
14. Chocolate :)
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends → Of course
16. Fallen out of love → Nope
17. Laughed until you cried → I've cried until I've laughed. Does that count?
18. Met someone who changed you→ Not that I can think of
19. Found out who your true friends were→ Yes. Some I wasn't even expecting
20. Found out someone was talking about you→ Oh yeah
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ This year????? Yeah
23. How many kids do you want to have → 2
25. Do you want to change your name→ No
26. What did you do for your last birthday→ Magic Mountain!!! With crazy van stalker guy
27. What time did you wake up today → 10:00. Trying to avoid going to work
28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ Bio? No. Friends - Series Finale
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for → Being done with Finals! And having kids. Is that weird that I'm looking forward to that so much?
30. Last time you saw your father→ It's been a while. Close to 3 weeks now.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → Being a better person. It's something I seem to be struggling with lately.
32. What are you listening to right now → The Fray
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Probably at some point in my life, but not a specific moment that I can recall.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? → Marijuana
36. Whats your real name → Jessica Marie Barcaedfdsfiohsdf....... (Barcellano)
37. Relationship Status → Single
38. Zodiac sign→ Virrrrgo
39. Male or female→ Lady
40. Elementary→ Barcelona Hills Elementary School - Yes. I got made fun of.
41. Middle School → San Marcos Middle School
42. High school → Paloma Valley High School
43. Hair color → Black, slowly fading into brown
44. Long or short → Short actually. I like it :)
5. Height → 5'5" Even though my license says 5'7"
46. Do you have a crush on someone? → Blehhhh
47. What do you like about yourself? → I am very schedule oriented
48. Piercings → Yesh
49. Tattoos → Why YES!!!!! I do.
50. Righty or lefty → Righty
FIRSTS :
51. First surgery → Wisdom teeth. Thank goodness that's over
52. First piercing → 10 ish
53. First tattoo→ 3 weeks ago!
54. First best friend → ????
55. First sport you joined → Track
56. First pet → A fish
57. First vacation → :( I don't vacation. Ever.
58. First concert → Relient K
59. First crush→ Christian Fleck Grades 1-5 Hahaha
60. First drink- Decline to state
RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating → Nothing :( Even though I wish I was
62. Drinking → Water
63. I'm about to → Go eat and then finish studying
64. Listening to → The Fray... still.
65. Waiting for → SPRING BREAK!!!
YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? - Mhmm
67. Want to get married? Mhmm
68. Careers in mind? – Math teacher. Or a psychologist I guess. I'm getting the freaking degree!
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THEM?
69. Lips or eyes → No comment
70. Hugs or kisses → Both
71. Shorter or taller → Taller please
72. Older or Younger → Older I guess
73. Romantic or spontaneous → Both
74. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms?
75. Tattoos or piercings→ Meh...
76. Sensitive or loud → Middle
77. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship, well.... depends
78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Neither
HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger → Sure
80. Drank hard liquor straight → what?!
81. Lost glasses/contacts → Sunglasses :(
82. Sex on first date → Pass
83. Broken someone's heart → I would hope not
84. Had your own heart broken → Definitely
85. Been arrested? → Close
86. Turned someone down → Yeah
87. Cried when someone died→ Mhmm
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → ????
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → Yes
90. Miracles → YES
91. Love at first sight → Ehhh
92. Heaven → YES
93. Santa Claus → Shhhhh....
94. Kissing on the first date? → Nothing excessive
95. Angels → YES
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Of course
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever?→ Yes. Till death do you part
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without?→ Cheese (in case I didn't tell you today)
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Maybe...
2. Last phone call→ Yesterday, at work :)
3. Last text message→ Annie - "He is really awesome. Uh oh"
4. Last song you listened to→ Single Ladies!!!
5. Last time you cried→ Pshhhh. Girls don't cry. It's been a while.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice → Ehhhhhhh.....
7. Been cheated on? No
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? → Mebe.
9. Lost someone special? → Doesn't everyone
10. Been depressed?→ There was a time.
11. Been drunk? →What do you think?
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. YELLOW!
13. Blue
14. Chocolate :)
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends → Of course
16. Fallen out of love → Nope
17. Laughed until you cried → I've cried until I've laughed. Does that count?
18. Met someone who changed you→ Not that I can think of
19. Found out who your true friends were→ Yes. Some I wasn't even expecting
20. Found out someone was talking about you→ Oh yeah
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ This year????? Yeah
23. How many kids do you want to have → 2
25. Do you want to change your name→ No
26. What did you do for your last birthday→ Magic Mountain!!! With crazy van stalker guy
27. What time did you wake up today → 10:00. Trying to avoid going to work
28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ Bio? No. Friends - Series Finale
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for → Being done with Finals! And having kids. Is that weird that I'm looking forward to that so much?
30. Last time you saw your father→ It's been a while. Close to 3 weeks now.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → Being a better person. It's something I seem to be struggling with lately.
32. What are you listening to right now → The Fray
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Probably at some point in my life, but not a specific moment that I can recall.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? → Marijuana
36. Whats your real name → Jessica Marie Barcaedfdsfiohsdf....... (Barcellano)
37. Relationship Status → Single
38. Zodiac sign→ Virrrrgo
39. Male or female→ Lady
40. Elementary→ Barcelona Hills Elementary School - Yes. I got made fun of.
41. Middle School → San Marcos Middle School
42. High school → Paloma Valley High School
43. Hair color → Black, slowly fading into brown
44. Long or short → Short actually. I like it :)
5. Height → 5'5" Even though my license says 5'7"
46. Do you have a crush on someone? → Blehhhh
47. What do you like about yourself? → I am very schedule oriented
48. Piercings → Yesh
49. Tattoos → Why YES!!!!! I do.
50. Righty or lefty → Righty
FIRSTS :
51. First surgery → Wisdom teeth. Thank goodness that's over
52. First piercing → 10 ish
53. First tattoo→ 3 weeks ago!
54. First best friend → ????
55. First sport you joined → Track
56. First pet → A fish
57. First vacation → :( I don't vacation. Ever.
58. First concert → Relient K
59. First crush→ Christian Fleck Grades 1-5 Hahaha
60. First drink- Decline to state
RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating → Nothing :( Even though I wish I was
62. Drinking → Water
63. I'm about to → Go eat and then finish studying
64. Listening to → The Fray... still.
65. Waiting for → SPRING BREAK!!!
YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? - Mhmm
67. Want to get married? Mhmm
68. Careers in mind? – Math teacher. Or a psychologist I guess. I'm getting the freaking degree!
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THEM?
69. Lips or eyes → No comment
70. Hugs or kisses → Both
71. Shorter or taller → Taller please
72. Older or Younger → Older I guess
73. Romantic or spontaneous → Both
74. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms?
75. Tattoos or piercings→ Meh...
76. Sensitive or loud → Middle
77. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship, well.... depends
78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Neither
HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger → Sure
80. Drank hard liquor straight → what?!
81. Lost glasses/contacts → Sunglasses :(
82. Sex on first date → Pass
83. Broken someone's heart → I would hope not
84. Had your own heart broken → Definitely
85. Been arrested? → Close
86. Turned someone down → Yeah
87. Cried when someone died→ Mhmm
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → ????
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → Yes
90. Miracles → YES
91. Love at first sight → Ehhh
92. Heaven → YES
93. Santa Claus → Shhhhh....
94. Kissing on the first date? → Nothing excessive
95. Angels → YES
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Of course
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever?→ Yes. Till death do you part
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without?→ Cheese (in case I didn't tell you today)
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Maybe...
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Thank You
Analeigh Sanchez. You're a crazy whore! Thank you for getting ice cream with me. Thank you for helping me experience the world. Thank you for giving me plastic bags. Thank you for being a bad influence. Thank you for being a slut. Thank you for skinny dipping in spas with me. Thank you for taking care of me. Thank you for trying to go to San Fran. Thank you (in advance) for going to San Fran. Thank you for listening to me. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for driving to Irvine. Thank you for smiling. Thank you for staying up until 6 am watching movies. Thank you for taking pictures. Thank you for calling me a homo every time you call me. Thank you for leaving me crazy messages. Thank you for shotgunning. Thank you for piercings. Thank you (in advance) for tattoos. Thank you for the Target parking lot. Thank you for Old Navy. Thank you for Riverside. Thank you for boys. Thank you for texting me randomly. Thank you for being so strong. Thank you for being my best friend.
Kevin Wilkinson. You love video games too much! Thank you for introducing me to Zelda. Thank you for staying until 12. No, 1. Wait, 2. Thank you for telling me like it is. Thank you for eating with me, even though I'm weird. Thank you for driving like a crazy person. Thank you for using SINE. Thank you for wearing that hat. Thank you (in advance) for letting me punch you in that face. Thank you for making videos with me. Thank you for blogging. Thank you for Harry Potter Trivia. Thank you for turning me into the police. Thank you for calling me at 8 am. Thank you for eating Subway. Thank you for hobo dinners. Thank you for Gay Pimp. Thank you for trying to fix our router. Thank you for hotfoot. Thank you for coonties. Thank you for chicken cake. Thank you for Zelda Girl. Thank you for reading the newspaper. Thank you for letting me tell you how much I love cheese. Thank you for Douchey McDouche and Bob Smith. Thank you for 2% milk. Thank you for Resident Evil. Thank you for laughing when I do stupid things. Thank you for aim. Thank you for being my buffer. Thank you for being my safe haven. Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for loving me deep down in side. Thank you for your passion. Thank you for being my best friend.
Laura Wright. Oh dear, you are semi retarded. Thank you for living with me. Thank you for Tuesday nights. Thank you for calling me "Scrotes." Thank you for cooking with me. Thank you for dying my hair. Thank you for staying up late. Thank you for sharing your ice cream. Thank you for eating mine. Thank you for making up songs with me. Thank you for screaming when we watch scary movies. Thank you for trying to play video games. Thank you for getting addicted to tv shows. Thank you for decorating. Thank you for our crooked lamp. Thank you for math homework. Thank you for being an SE major. Thank you for loud push ups. Thank you for being silly with me. Thank you for listening to Taylor Swift. Thank you for making Albertson's runs with me. Thank you for keeping the light on. Thank you for waking up early. Thank you for watching the game show network. Thank you for eating with me, even when you're not hungry. Thank you for having malaria. Thank you for not blowing up Pippin. Thank you for working out with me, sometimes. Thank you for making dinner. Thank you for shedding light on what I'm really eating. Thank you for making me choke on eggs. Thank you (in advance) for breaking dishes over my head. Thank you for crying with me. Thank you for listening to ridiculous songs and dancing like a gangster with me. Thank you for our 6 o clock date. Thank you for being the only other white girl in the dorm. Thank you for still loving me after everything. Thank you for being my best friend.
Adam Palaski. You annoy the crap out of me. Thank you for taking classes with me. Thank you for hibernating my computer. Thank you for making me coffee. Thank you for schooling me at Mario Kart. Thank you for falling asleep during tv shows. Thank you for your crazy planning. Thank you for calling me weird. Thank you for basketball lessons. Thank you for coming over to play Zelda. Thank you for my movie list. Thank you for driving to the beach. Thank you for your random phone calls. Thank you for coming over at 2 in the morning because you're bored. Thank you for watching movies with me. Thank you for getting really good at Brawl. Thank you for kindness. Thank you for helping me with Zelda. Thank you for smelling good. Thank you for playing football with me. Thank you for our spot in the Student Center. Thank you for Physics. Thank you for playing your guitar. Thank you for sending me weird youtube videos. Thank you for going places with me. Thank you for all your funny stories. Thank you for having the same phone. Thank you for our late night IM's. Thank you for "That's what she said." Thank you for baseball words, like ass. Thank you for your laugh. Thank you for being my best friend.
Asssssshhhhllleeee Roooooood!!! My sanity through high school. Thank you for driving like a crazy lady. Thank you for taking me to Taco Bell and Jack in the Crack at crazy hours. Thank you for playing the flute. Thank you for running track. Thank you for loving TECHNO and dancing with me. Thank you for holding my hand. Thank you for singing screamo. Thank you for sleepovers. Thank you for doing photo shoots. Thank you for driving down to Irvine to play Cranium. Thank you for being a cheater. Thank you for never giving up. Thank you for our 16th birthday party. Thank you for Joan of Arc. Thank you for Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Thank you for hot foreign boys at the club. Thank you for getting pulled over by the cops. Thank you for teaching me how to ride a horse. Thank you for Wednesday night Bible Study and Carl's Junior. Thank you for being there always. Thank you for smiling. Thank you for always being late. Thank you for trying on Prom dresses. Thank you for being my best friend.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Just a Little Late
If I wrote a memoir of the last year of my life, this song would play continuously in the background.
"You Found Me"
The Fray
I found God
On the corner of first and Amistad
Where the west was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said "where you been," he said "ask anything"
Where were you?
When everything was falling apart
All my days were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
To the corner of first and Amistad
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
In the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not, who I want to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Whyd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Early morning, City breaks
Ive been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never send me no letters
You got some kind of nerve, taking all I want
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Where were you where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Whyd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
why'd you have to wait
to find me, to find me
"You Found Me"
The Fray
I found God
On the corner of first and Amistad
Where the west was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said "where you been," he said "ask anything"
Where were you?
When everything was falling apart
All my days were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
To the corner of first and Amistad
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
In the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not, who I want to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Whyd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Early morning, City breaks
Ive been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never send me no letters
You got some kind of nerve, taking all I want
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Where were you where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Whyd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
why'd you have to wait
to find me, to find me
Thursday, January 29, 2009
I Wish I Was A Better Artist...
Sad story of the year.
I know you've probably heard the story already, but in case you haven't, or in case you just wanted another laugh, I'm going to immortalize it here. (Or for however long I leave this blog up...)
First SE 10 discussion of the year. Monday January 12th 2009. 2:00om. DBH 1423 (Which holds approximately 30 people) I was there early enough to actually grab a seat, my first mistake. If I was to make an estimated guess, I would say there were around 40 people in this tiny teeny cramped room. And notice how I seem to be the center, with all of the bystanders facing my direction. Class was just starting, so my backpack's on the desk, unopened, sitting there. Second mistake. The roll sheet is coming around. I sign my name (Woo! Extra Credit)
So I lean forward (Third Mistake) to try to hand it to the person in front of me and to my left (Fourth Mistake). Apparently the weight of my backpack, combined with the angle that my desk was tilting, and the recent waxing of the floor (I'm assuming) was too much for my desk. The result was my backpack, with computer in tow, falling off and then my desk following suit and tipping over to a point of no return, taking me partially down with it. Now you would think that this could be construed as an accident and could be quickly recovered from. Wrong. The 3 people directly adjacent to me took it upon themselves to "pick up" my desk, as well as myself (which was currently residing in the fallen desk). After the guy next to me finished laughing, I left the room.
Now it's been 2 1/2 weeks, and my computer is still reminding me everyday about this mishap. It's broken. Every time it restarts, it's a different color. Which some might consider entertaining. I, on the other hand, do not. And last night it continued its decent. It flashes black. BLACK! Do you know what that means?! It's dying. I'm going to have to take it in to get assessed eventually, before it completely craps out on me.
In other, less saddening news, I'm going Snowboarding this weekend! Well, at least that's the plan. 8 hour drives! On little to no sleep! The life of a college student.
I know you've probably heard the story already, but in case you haven't, or in case you just wanted another laugh, I'm going to immortalize it here. (Or for however long I leave this blog up...)
First SE 10 discussion of the year. Monday January 12th 2009. 2:00om. DBH 1423 (Which holds approximately 30 people) I was there early enough to actually grab a seat, my first mistake. If I was to make an estimated guess, I would say there were around 40 people in this tiny teeny cramped room. And notice how I seem to be the center, with all of the bystanders facing my direction. Class was just starting, so my backpack's on the desk, unopened, sitting there. Second mistake. The roll sheet is coming around. I sign my name (Woo! Extra Credit)
So I lean forward (Third Mistake) to try to hand it to the person in front of me and to my left (Fourth Mistake). Apparently the weight of my backpack, combined with the angle that my desk was tilting, and the recent waxing of the floor (I'm assuming) was too much for my desk. The result was my backpack, with computer in tow, falling off and then my desk following suit and tipping over to a point of no return, taking me partially down with it. Now you would think that this could be construed as an accident and could be quickly recovered from. Wrong. The 3 people directly adjacent to me took it upon themselves to "pick up" my desk, as well as myself (which was currently residing in the fallen desk). After the guy next to me finished laughing, I left the room.Now it's been 2 1/2 weeks, and my computer is still reminding me everyday about this mishap. It's broken. Every time it restarts, it's a different color. Which some might consider entertaining. I, on the other hand, do not. And last night it continued its decent. It flashes black. BLACK! Do you know what that means?! It's dying. I'm going to have to take it in to get assessed eventually, before it completely craps out on me.
In other, less saddening news, I'm going Snowboarding this weekend! Well, at least that's the plan. 8 hour drives! On little to no sleep! The life of a college student.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Supermassive Black Hole
Boy. It's been a while since I've updated anything. So I guess I'll start with the most pressing issue. As of January 3rd, 2009, the Indianapolis Colts are no longer in the running for the Super Bowl. And I absolutely HATE the Chargers. The nerve... And as of yesterday, the New York Giants, my second runner up, had their dreams shot up, and are also out. This saddens me greatly. Who do I root for? Cardinals, Eagles, Ravens, or Steelers? I have to admit, I haven't watched any of their games all season! We'll see...
Classes started a week ago. And let me tell you, fun stuff. Let's recap and put forth our predictions for the quarter.
Bio 36 - If I can manage to hold Adam off for the quarter, then I think I will do pretty well in this class. The material is pretty similar to things I learned in Psych, and all of the tests are pulled straight from the lectures! Score. I'll be optimistic and say A.
Physics 7A - Well, anything is better than an F -. Physics is just physics. There's no way one can describe it in words. I could write an equation stating how much I hate it, but that seems a little extreme. If I keeps doing well on the homework , which I intend to, and pass the quizzes, I predict that a B will come forth from this class.
Math 131B - White math professor. It's a beautiful thing. I can understand! This class is just a continuation from last quarter, so I'm pretty confident that I'll do well. If I stay on top of the work...I hear the tests are closed book! Haha, what a concept. I guess I got too comfortable last quarter. A.
SE 10 - Who says 3 hour classes aren't fun?! I do. Especially this one. Not enjoyable. We spent an hour talking about the library last class. Don't worry. I most definitely tuned out most of it. Hopefully I'll be able to stay awake long enough to get an A. Research... blah!
So. Super fun, yeah? I started that kickboxing class. I'll have to show you my sweet moves sometime. You would be jealous. It's pretty intense though. We'll see how I feel after tonight.
My mom called me last night. My great grandpa, who's 90 years old, mind you, is on his last few days. I guess it was kind of a shock because I haven't really heard anything about him, so I assumed no news was good news. I was wrong. But he's comfortable and at home with the people he loves. I'm not overly emotional about the situation, because I was never attached. I've met him a total of 2 times that I can remember. He was a nice old man. And, in case you were wondering, yes, he does talk. He's not one of those old people that you just sit and look at. But I feel more bad for my grandpa and my mom. That's his father, and her grandpa. They know him. They're attached. There's most likely going to be a funeral to go to this week. I've only been to one other, and that was for Nahum's dad. And the whole service was in Spanish. Not too much understanding going on there. But this means that all of those long lost aunts and uncles and cousins will be visiting. It's a little sad that death brings people that you haven't seen in a decade together. I guess it's just one of those things that you don't question and just let be. I won't ask you to pray that my grandpa get's better, because I truly believe it's his time. I would ask, if you're thinking about it, that you throw a prayer out for the comfort of everyone that he's leaving behind. They're going to need it.
And just when I think everything's almost perfect in my life, the rug get's pulled out from under me again. If I didn't tell you already, my parents moved back in together a few weeks before Christmas. It was great having my family reunited again. It's been a long time since I've seen everyone so happy. And Christmas morning was amazing. My dad made an AMAZING breakfast! Present time was just as good. (Not so much for the presents, but just being together, as a family) I was under the naive impression that we had turned to a new chapter in our lives. But low and behold, 2 days after Christmas, 2 DAYS!!!! I wake up to find my dad's stuff piled in the living room. Odd. But of course, I'm not thinking the worst in my head. But then I talk to my mom...
"Well, I guess we should talk about the elephant in the room." Really Mom?! Elephant? "You're Dad moved out this morning." Great. Just great. Because I was so ready for that one to happen. I told people. I even waited to make sure it was for real this time! I told people that we were all fixed. I told them that we weren't broken anymore. I guess I was wrong. And then I left. I came back to Irvine and I haven't been back since. I guess I'm running away. But after this year, I am just so done with it all. So I'm sorry if I gave anyone false hope that my life was back to normal. And, if you're thinking about it, pray that God gives me compassion for my parents and their situation. Because right now, I feel nothing.
Classes started a week ago. And let me tell you, fun stuff. Let's recap and put forth our predictions for the quarter.
Bio 36 - If I can manage to hold Adam off for the quarter, then I think I will do pretty well in this class. The material is pretty similar to things I learned in Psych, and all of the tests are pulled straight from the lectures! Score. I'll be optimistic and say A.
Physics 7A - Well, anything is better than an F -. Physics is just physics. There's no way one can describe it in words. I could write an equation stating how much I hate it, but that seems a little extreme. If I keeps doing well on the homework , which I intend to, and pass the quizzes, I predict that a B will come forth from this class.
Math 131B - White math professor. It's a beautiful thing. I can understand! This class is just a continuation from last quarter, so I'm pretty confident that I'll do well. If I stay on top of the work...I hear the tests are closed book! Haha, what a concept. I guess I got too comfortable last quarter. A.
SE 10 - Who says 3 hour classes aren't fun?! I do. Especially this one. Not enjoyable. We spent an hour talking about the library last class. Don't worry. I most definitely tuned out most of it. Hopefully I'll be able to stay awake long enough to get an A. Research... blah!
So. Super fun, yeah? I started that kickboxing class. I'll have to show you my sweet moves sometime. You would be jealous. It's pretty intense though. We'll see how I feel after tonight.
My mom called me last night. My great grandpa, who's 90 years old, mind you, is on his last few days. I guess it was kind of a shock because I haven't really heard anything about him, so I assumed no news was good news. I was wrong. But he's comfortable and at home with the people he loves. I'm not overly emotional about the situation, because I was never attached. I've met him a total of 2 times that I can remember. He was a nice old man. And, in case you were wondering, yes, he does talk. He's not one of those old people that you just sit and look at. But I feel more bad for my grandpa and my mom. That's his father, and her grandpa. They know him. They're attached. There's most likely going to be a funeral to go to this week. I've only been to one other, and that was for Nahum's dad. And the whole service was in Spanish. Not too much understanding going on there. But this means that all of those long lost aunts and uncles and cousins will be visiting. It's a little sad that death brings people that you haven't seen in a decade together. I guess it's just one of those things that you don't question and just let be. I won't ask you to pray that my grandpa get's better, because I truly believe it's his time. I would ask, if you're thinking about it, that you throw a prayer out for the comfort of everyone that he's leaving behind. They're going to need it.
And just when I think everything's almost perfect in my life, the rug get's pulled out from under me again. If I didn't tell you already, my parents moved back in together a few weeks before Christmas. It was great having my family reunited again. It's been a long time since I've seen everyone so happy. And Christmas morning was amazing. My dad made an AMAZING breakfast! Present time was just as good. (Not so much for the presents, but just being together, as a family) I was under the naive impression that we had turned to a new chapter in our lives. But low and behold, 2 days after Christmas, 2 DAYS!!!! I wake up to find my dad's stuff piled in the living room. Odd. But of course, I'm not thinking the worst in my head. But then I talk to my mom...
"Well, I guess we should talk about the elephant in the room." Really Mom?! Elephant? "You're Dad moved out this morning." Great. Just great. Because I was so ready for that one to happen. I told people. I even waited to make sure it was for real this time! I told people that we were all fixed. I told them that we weren't broken anymore. I guess I was wrong. And then I left. I came back to Irvine and I haven't been back since. I guess I'm running away. But after this year, I am just so done with it all. So I'm sorry if I gave anyone false hope that my life was back to normal. And, if you're thinking about it, pray that God gives me compassion for my parents and their situation. Because right now, I feel nothing.
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