Rocket Can

What if everything you ever dreamed of
Came
In
A
ROCKET CAN!

Hahahaha. Just needed a laugh. Well, winter break has been eventful so far. I've been sick the majority of it. So that's always fun. Then there was my dad's surprise heart attack. Pretty scary stuff if you ask me. Christmas was good. It was different though. Like, I woke up and I wasn't jumping out of my skin like normal. I guess that's just part of growing up.
Last night was awesome. Ice Skating in Esco. Then In n Out. And to top that all off....funny crazy games at Ashlee's house. I am the most intense samurai that you will ever meet.



So basically, Kevin. This is what you missed out on!
Today's going to be an interesting day. Ashlee's house again, which is going to be awesomely insane. And some other less pleasant stuff will be happening. Joy.

I just want to be back at school. I don't want to think about anything else. I don't want to deal with anything else. I love my time here, but I'm done. If that makes me weak and a coward, then I'm okay with that. Things are just too complicated and frustrating. Ahhhh. I can hardly think.

On a lighter note, this weekend should be interesting. Hopefully "Juno" is going to happen on Saturday. And some other events as well. Looking forward to it. Nine more days until school! Thank goodness.

Home

So I've been home for about a week now. It's weird not seeing all my UCI friends everyday, but less than 2 weeks kids :)
Grades...ehhh. Well I did my best
Math 2B : A
Psychology : C-
Physics Lab : C
Physics: F

Next quarter will be better. Currently I am signed up for
Math 2D
Math 2J
Writing 39B
Psychology 11B
And I expect to get 2 A's and 2 B's respectively. We will see.

I know it's been a long time since I've been home, but everyday I wake up thinking one day closer to going back. I don't know. Right now it'll be 14 days until I return. But until then, I will have to fill my time with endless trivia, reading, studying (hahaha) and friends.

Thursday is the big hangout. Ice Skating then movie/bon fire/spa sesh (In the words of miss Rood)

Friday Kevin is coming down, so I'll get to annoy him for a few days. And possibly punch him in the face.

Then it's just another week.

On a side note, today's games were amazing.
Colts beat the Texans
Packers got PWNED by the Bears
Miami lost to the Patriots, but it was funny watching Brady throw 2 interceptions, a fumble, 2 or 3 sacks and not scoring at all in the second half!

Chargers game tomorrow.

Currently

Currently I am sitting in my den area thinking about how little I have to do. And what better way to fill your time then by listening to Relient K and typing out the updates of your life on Facebook. I am now 18, 3 months, 2 weeks, and 1 day. I am 5'5'' (a whole two inches shorter than my drivers license says) and I recently tried to die my hair blonde. Thankfully it did not work. I reside in Menifee, California (Land of the Dirt) but live in Irvine, California. I just failed my first class, and despite the disappointment, I am quite pleased with it.

At school (UCI) I have some pretty sweet friends. And I can officially say that I have turned. As you may remember in high school I was the band kid, academic kid, track kid, and homecoming princess. So to sum that up, a little above average on the popularity scale (but who's looking really?) Now in college, I am no longer the band kid, academics have gone out the window, I don't think there is a homecoming here and track is nonexistent. What I am though is a through and through Video game nerd, internet fanatic, technology weirdo, and God loving child. And I am proud of it. I would like to thank my converts; Kevin for teaching me his Halo ways and insane obsession with all things Zelda, Travis and Nick for getting me hooked on Mario Cart, Jin for Final Fantasy 10 and the never ending debate between playstation and Nintendo.

I have continued to step into my faith more and more each day. I am part of The CCC or Campus Crusade for Christ or more commonly, Cru. So many people in this group have already influenced my life. To list everybody would cause major carpal tunnel syndrome. I think I'll just stick to tagging. But I definitely thank God everyday that I am part of this group. And I cannot wait to see what the rest of this year holds for me!

Moving on. Boys. Gah. Is there any other way to describe them?

I failed my first class. Physics 7A or as I have been known to call it, the devil. Even with studying I received a 36% on the first midterm. And with out studying, I am proud to say that I got an 11% on the final. If you're going to fail a class, aim for the Mega super mondo extreme F (which is what I got) Math is great. Definitely where I want to be. Way better than anything I could have planned myself. And I'm glad I found the only other math major on Campus ;)

And I can't forget my Menifee homies. Despite the fact that we live in the middle of nowhere, we always manage to find good times :D

I believe I can say now that I have truly found myself.

Business Time

"2 minutes in heaven is better than 1 minute in heaven"

Finals

Are awful. Well, at least physics [which is STILL the devil]

Peeeectures from the concert!

Rubix Cube

So basically this will be me in like a week. I've been practicing like mad crazy and I can do it in under 5 minutes. We will see!

Tonight

So I am currently sitting in the ICS computer lab contemplating doing my math homework. I am also thinking about a heck of a lot of stuff I have to get through in the next few weeks before finals. Basically, I'm going to fail my physics class. And the sad part is I really don't care. Math is bomb. I totally pwned Kevin in the face. [What now???!!] And to top things off, I am thoroughly confused about everything. I just don't know anymore. What should I do? How should I do it? LAME. Sometimes, college sucks. Anyways, besides this week being the best week of my entire life....

Relient K and Switchfoot concert
A on my second math test
A few nights of some really good sleep

some sucky stuff has happened too. I don;t know what the heck is up with my parents....and I don't want to know. I juts want to stay as far away as possible. Does that make me a bad person? Or just someone who doesn't want to deal with whatever the heck it is. I know everything will work out according to God's will, but I hate the in between of being around both of them when they can't even look at each other. I wish I could just tell them to GROW UP! But I can't. Just keep my family in your prayers. I don't want another sucky Christmas. One was bad enough.

Moving on. Tonights agenda is kinda interesting.

Right now: homework
Later: Room cleaning, lowering my bed
Even later: maybe some studying
7 pm: Dinner at Red Lobster

I hope it's good! Sorry for not posting [Kevin] I do have a life though.
Hahahaha Just kidding [maybe]

OH. and pictures from the concert will be put up later...maybe even today!

Definitions.

Gossip: idle talk or rumor, esp. about the personal or private affairs of others

Drama: any situation or series of events having vivid, emotional, conflicting, or striking interest or results

Ignorance: The condition of being uneducated, unaware, or uninformed

Stupid: lacking ordinary quickness and keenness of mind; dull

Just a few definitions so there is no confusion as to what I am talking about.

After a lengthy discussion with my mother I have come to the conclusion that gossip does not die when you turn 18. In fact, it worsens. Adults are your middle school and highschool friends combined with an added feeling of independece and douchebaggyness. What I am still failing to understand is why. Why is it that when you reach this pivitol moment in your life you feel a need to be catty, shady, and other words of the sort? I thought we were responsible adults who could be open with others and at least be civil. But thank you for proving me wrong.

Gossip brings nothing but pain. anger, and hurt feelings. If you are not part of the problem and not part of the solution you should have NOTHING to talk about. If you have questions or concerns, take them up with the people directly involved. Don't be coniving and snarky [Yeah, snarky, it's a word. Google it]

Ignorant, not to be confused with stupid, talk is nothing more than nonsense. Seriously?? Get a life. Or at least get out of other peoples. Your "help" or whatever you want to call it, is NOT appreciated or wanted.

Please and Thank you.

Warning

Do not sleep when you are hungry. Because trust me, you will wake up 10 times hungrier...and grosser [if I can say that]. Beowulf soon! So you know how that is :D More updates later!!!

Cause I already posted in Facebook...

Wow. It's crazy how life gets so complicated so fast. One day everything seems fairly nice, going smoothly, you seem unstoppable, or at least pretty strong. And then BAM. Everything changes. I know change is supposed to be good, but sometimes it's hard to see the bigger picture when you are so focused on the here and now.

Complication-to make complex, intricate, involved, or difficult.

Difficult??? I don't want things to be difficult. I don't want my life to be complicated. I want to have fun. I want to be a crazy college freshman, my only worries being whether or not I'm going to fail my physics class (which is looking like a definite yes). Things are not supposed to be complicated for a very very long while. Part of me wished that things were different. But I have this situation and I'm not willing to change. Does that make me selfish or just self destructive? I don't know. I guess I'm both. I mean, I keep coming back to this same situation. I've done this before and it didn't end well. So what makes me think that this time will be different? How am I not going to end up broken again?

I don't know. Everything is so unanswered. I have no answers. I just have my faith. And some good "sad" music. And chocolate. And that is a recipe for a good long cry...and maybe a few pounds in between. I guess I have to put my faith in God. I have to realize that his plan is so much bigger than me or anything I can imagine. I know things are going to work out.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

I guess I have to take a leap in faith. And I'm willing to do that. Because I know the prize at the end is something worth complicating my life for. Thank you Jesus for everything you will do to help me through this. Cause I know that it will not be an easy task.

All nighters

Are never a good idea. Especially when you have a midterm in less than 2 days. Not cool guys. But definitely WAYWAYWAY fun.

Update

So school has been a little hectic/crazy/amazingly fun. I love it. And I don't at the same time. There are so many things going on that it's hard to keep up. Cru has definately taken up most of my time.

Halloween Party

Swing "Dancing" the night away

Me & Kevin

Knotts "SCARY" Farm

Ladies Night Out

Breakfast/Twister Party

FALL-OUT

Cabin 25 Girls

Broomball

Crusade Bonfire

Basically what's been going on so far. Lots of crazy awesomness, plus way more. College is definately amazing! And I know that these next few years will be the best of my life. Looking forward to many many more good times.

This week

This has definately been an interesting, long, and busy week. Monday started off as any other day, besides the fact that fires were burning everywhere and I almost died from smoke inhalation. I skipped a class [I feel like a rebel] and we had our Monday night tv extravaganza; Heroes and Chuck. Tuesday. Well, that's just a boring day. Wednesday was involved. I played tennis for the firsst time in months and I wasn't too bad. I decided that I was a 2....on a scale of 1-10 that is. I decided that instead if spending 15 minutes walking from the ARC it would be faster to take the shuttle. WRONG. It is not faster to take the shuttle. It is 30 minutes longer to take the shuttle, leaving me with a grand total of 45 minutes to get home. Lame. And I found out that Vangaurd is shut down for the week. Even lamer. We're closer to the fire and we have worse air quality, yet I still had to suffer through 2 midterms this week. [One which I failed and one that if I don't pass I will severely hurt someone]

Cru was crazy good, like always. Awesome worship except for the last song [hahahaha Adam] Passion tea lemonaide is NOT good, but completely addicting. And Physics sucks completely. If anyone gets higher than a 40 I'm going to scream. Math midterm tomorrow for which I am doing some mad studying for, not that I need it. And to top everything off, Fall Out is tomorrow, or today I guess. I'm sure I'll sleep on the ride up there. I'm pretty sure our car is going to be the best.

So as I'm sitting at my desk, waiting for my roommate to come back and trying my best to not think about math, I am contemplating sleep right now. It's 1:52 and I have to wake up at 7 to shower and pack and do many other things. And to top it all off, I'm hungry.

This week I've had a lot of things on my mind, mainly, my patience with God. It's something I am severely lacking in right now. Hopefully this weekend will bring new light to this problem. And hopefully I'll make some new friends too!

Kevin-Before I forget, I still have your camera and your $3. But I'm warning you, I just might have to start charging you for having to carry all this stuff around. Not cool man, not cool.

Physics

Is definately the devil. It's right there with Aleks. Evilevilevil.

Fire

Well, as you all know, fires are currently attacking the Irvine area. I just heard from somewhat reliable source that if it jumps the freeway, we will be evacuated. Scary stuff. There are crazy amounts of ash outside and the smoke is sufficating. Kind of. San Diego has been evacuated as well as Malibu and the Arrowhead area. It's only a matter of time. Moving on. Today was an okay day. I "accidentally" missed my Psych discussion. Oh well. Math was lame, just like always and I still have to figure out some financial aid stuff. Other than that, everything is well. This weekend will be the first that I am not going home. A little sad, but hopefully both my parents and I will manage. Keeping everyone in my prayers, especially those who have already lost their homes.

I finally did it.

Ha. I finally made a lovely little blog; a place where can post anything and where people can read it, I guess. Well then, I shall begin. College is fun in a different sort of way. So many things are going on that it's hard to keep track of. Campus Crusade is amazing and I am definately blessed to be part of this group. I've made sme pretty awesome friends here and I definately look forward to see what the future holds for me. Classes are so-so; boring and a little awful all at the same time. I can barely stay awake. (most of the time) But it's fine. I miss my family and friends at home a lot, but I try not to think about it too much. I'm managing it alright though. Ha. I took the train home for the first time today and it was definately intense. Actually, to be honest, I enjoyed it. We'll see how that pans out. I keep having to find rides home since, you know. Well, I think that's what I'm most sad about. I mean, there were so many plans. Everything was planned out; everything was supposed to be perfect. But that just goes to show you that you can't always have all of the answers. Sometimes life throws you something and you just have to manage. And I guess that I just have to keep going one day at a time. It's not so bad after you egt used to it and fill your life with other, better things. Moving on, I am currently attending the wonderful UCI in the even more wonderful OC. It's definately a change from little old Menifee, but I like it. Well, I think that will suffice tonight. I'm sure I will have plenty more to write about in the coming days. I have to figure this thing out. Darn you Kevin and your stupid blog addiction. Now I am too!